Sorry for the lack of posting. So much has been going on lately. My mum developed insomnia...and a bad case of it. Along with anxiety. So I've been trying to figure out ways that can help her, in some way. She's on medication for it now though, so hopefully she will be back to normal asap. Not only has that been happening, but I had my only mid-year exam last Thursday; the GAT- General Achievement Test. I didn't mind too much about it...I just went for it and did the best I could. Lately, people keep on asking me what I want to do when I'm older. I want to do hairdressing and/or beauty. No I don't know what exactly I will be doing next year. And no I don't have a job yet. No I don't have my license yet. Yes I know I don't pay enough attention and do enough work in class. But I can't help that! It's hard for me to be in school.
The last couple of days, I have been feeling really down about myself. I currently have a break out of pimples. My eczema has gotten bad on my face. I've ran out of foundation until mum buys me some - I won't leave the house until I have something to cover up my skin. I'm trying to get rid of the eczema on my legs, so I'm not shaving my legs because that makes them worse. I feel like a beast. But tonight, I feel really good about myself. My friend Ash is telling me all this great stuff, about how I'm "perfect" and such. And another friend Coen was telling me about how I'm beautiful, even if I can't see it, and I'm exactly what a guy wants. Why, then, have I never had a boyfriend, Coen!? But oh well. I am who I am and I can't and wont change that. Not for anyone or anything.
I just watched my Debutante Ball dvd, before, and I didn't realize how much I miss it. It was so much fun; the dance practice, finding a dress and shoes and make up and hair styles, the rehearsal the night before, the new friendships...I can't believe how quickly it was over. And I can't believe how long it's been since I did it. I feel sorry for anyone who didn't part-take in the Debutante...they missed out on such a great opportunity.
I don't really know what else to write...I just feel weird having not blogged in so long. So I'll let you go now, and I'll leave you with the "silly picture" from my Deb.

The last couple of days, I have been feeling really down about myself. I currently have a break out of pimples. My eczema has gotten bad on my face. I've ran out of foundation until mum buys me some - I won't leave the house until I have something to cover up my skin. I'm trying to get rid of the eczema on my legs, so I'm not shaving my legs because that makes them worse. I feel like a beast. But tonight, I feel really good about myself. My friend Ash is telling me all this great stuff, about how I'm "perfect" and such. And another friend Coen was telling me about how I'm beautiful, even if I can't see it, and I'm exactly what a guy wants. Why, then, have I never had a boyfriend, Coen!? But oh well. I am who I am and I can't and wont change that. Not for anyone or anything.
I just watched my Debutante Ball dvd, before, and I didn't realize how much I miss it. It was so much fun; the dance practice, finding a dress and shoes and make up and hair styles, the rehearsal the night before, the new friendships...I can't believe how quickly it was over. And I can't believe how long it's been since I did it. I feel sorry for anyone who didn't part-take in the Debutante...they missed out on such a great opportunity.
I don't really know what else to write...I just feel weird having not blogged in so long. So I'll let you go now, and I'll leave you with the "silly picture" from my Deb.

I'm sorry to hear about your mom having problems with insomnia, and anxiety. I hope she gets better soon!
ReplyDeleteIt's good that you're not going to change for anyone. If someone can't take you for who you are then they aren't worth wasting your time over if you ask me.
@Cecilie thanks, love. I hope so too :).
ReplyDeleteExactly. I'm not gonna be anyone other than me, so everyone's just gotta take me as I am :). That's why I'm quite happy, with the boy I like at the moment...he's the complete opposite of me, but he doesn't care about anything, he likes me as i am :).
You can read more about the book Ash here: http://www.malindalo.com/ash/
ReplyDeleteI am terrible at re-telling books, so yeah:P
I'm happy to hear that you've found a boy who likes you just the way you are:)
@Cecilie, thanks love, will go check it out now :) :). Haha makes sense, i'm the same!
ReplyDeleteThanks n_n
I don't have a job or my license or know what I'm doing next year and I'm almost 20 but who cares?
ReplyDeleteAlso, don't feel sorry for me for not doing the deb - could you really see that happening? hhahaha.
@Kayla haha good call :).
ReplyDeleteand HAHAHA so true ;p. you missed you, you need to become a girl ;D