I would be ever so grateful if you would go die in a hole. I am sick of you. You'd think after 17 years you'd be sick of me too. But you're not. You love me. You just wont leave me alone. My face, my arms, my legs and my belly don't want you anymore!
I've had eczema ever since I was born. Had it terribly when I was a toddler, then as I got older it started to go; I would only get it on the back of my knees and my inner elbows, and only in the summer. But then in year 8, it started getting bad again. It's all over my legs. It's all over my face. I get it on my stomach. I get it on my lower arms. It's horrible. And whenever I scratch it, people yell at me for it. But you know what? You have no idea what it's like, to have eczema. You have no idea of the itchiness, the pain and the utter discomfort that is caused by it. All of you who tell me not to scratch it; you try living with it for 17 years and then tell me that I need to stop scratching it. It is absolutely horrible. Not only does it cause this discomfort, but I have a terribly low level of self confidence. Sure, everyone thinks that I'm extremely confident with myself, but I'm not. At all. The amount of make up I wear..? That's to hide my dry and scabby skin. The reason I refuse to let anyone see me without make up. I refuse to wear shorts, a skirt or a dress without pantyhose or tights. My legs are too red and scabby and dry for you to see. I cover it up as best I can, I put on this facade that I'm fine with it and don't care, when I really do. More than you could know. I am happy that I atleast have ways to cover it up. It's kind of my fault though; there are foods that I'm allergic to that give me eczema, yet I still eat them. But the list was made when I was tiny - it's most likely changed now.
Basically, this is just me venting about how unless you have eczema, you have absolutely no idea of what I go through every day. The things I have to face because of it. So leave me be; let me scratch it all I want to. Let me try to cover it up, without calling me a "cakeface". Kthxbai.
I've had eczema ever since I was born. Had it terribly when I was a toddler, then as I got older it started to go; I would only get it on the back of my knees and my inner elbows, and only in the summer. But then in year 8, it started getting bad again. It's all over my legs. It's all over my face. I get it on my stomach. I get it on my lower arms. It's horrible. And whenever I scratch it, people yell at me for it. But you know what? You have no idea what it's like, to have eczema. You have no idea of the itchiness, the pain and the utter discomfort that is caused by it. All of you who tell me not to scratch it; you try living with it for 17 years and then tell me that I need to stop scratching it. It is absolutely horrible. Not only does it cause this discomfort, but I have a terribly low level of self confidence. Sure, everyone thinks that I'm extremely confident with myself, but I'm not. At all. The amount of make up I wear..? That's to hide my dry and scabby skin. The reason I refuse to let anyone see me without make up. I refuse to wear shorts, a skirt or a dress without pantyhose or tights. My legs are too red and scabby and dry for you to see. I cover it up as best I can, I put on this facade that I'm fine with it and don't care, when I really do. More than you could know. I am happy that I atleast have ways to cover it up. It's kind of my fault though; there are foods that I'm allergic to that give me eczema, yet I still eat them. But the list was made when I was tiny - it's most likely changed now.
Basically, this is just me venting about how unless you have eczema, you have absolutely no idea of what I go through every day. The things I have to face because of it. So leave me be; let me scratch it all I want to. Let me try to cover it up, without calling me a "cakeface". Kthxbai.
You're right that I don't know what it feels like buuuut if it's that bad you'd think you would try to stop it. Don't eat the foods you're allergic to. And dr. Keifer told you the makeup and scratching makes it worse. So if you at least tried may e you'd get rid of it.
ReplyDelete@kayla haha this was't directed at you, love. it was directed at everyone at school. yeah i know but i need to cover it up, or else i'm not happy with how i look. im not sure what foods im allergic to now, though. can't help scratching it, it's too hard not to :(
ReplyDeleteI didn't mean that, I meant that as like I didn't wanna say my opinion as if I knew
ReplyDeletewhat it's like. But yeah you do. We found the list not long ago so you could have kept it and taken note of what not to eat.
@kayla yeah but that's what I was allergic to when I was little. It's changed as I've gotten older.
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